Independent Isolation

I don't know what I'd rather be doing, if it isn't just escaping. But I made a mistake living my life as if everything were an intrusion. I should have been nurturing deep relationships instead of pretending to be a bulwark all on my own. When I was younger I thought I would never need anyone. I prided myself on that idea. My motto was, don't ask me for anything and I'll return the favor. But that's stingy, thoughtless and cruel. I'm too quickly discouraged, disinterested and determined to avoid things. I sold myself solitude, the fault is my own. Independence has a cost and loneliness is the price.